“Nobody wants to take you prisoner.”
So this has been the busiest year in my history of bellydancing. I love it!! And I am tired. And I injured myself. But I love it. The only thing I would change is that I want more. I will never complain about being busy because this is what I want.
This is actually my first weekend off in months and I feel lazy. I really would rather just be dancing all the time. And traveling. I love to travel outside of Ohio where everyone knows me and perform and/or teach in other states where no one knows me. I love when those who have never seen me and don’t know me personally see what I do and love me based solely on my workshops and performance. It makes me feel like I am doing something right.
I do wonder what exactly has made me so busy. Is it my work?? Is it my personality?? Is it a mix of many things?? Just wondering so I can keep doing it!! I welcome any suggestions on what I am doing right. Keep the what you don’t like about me to yourselves because I cry a lot. 😉
I have also come to another decision. I am going to really work on solo skills this year. I have worked so hard for so long on group choreographies and what makes a group look good. I like my group stuff so much more than my solo stuff. Of course, I do. That is where a majority of my time is spent. I am going to spend equal time on my solo stuff for the next year and build that up because I have clearly realized one thing this year–you can’t depend on anyone. You can’t breathe easy with anyone. If I say, “she’s always reliable.” That is the year she becomes unreliable. If I say “she is always nice to me.” That is the time she starts being difficult and telling people my secrets. If I say, “she’s got my back.” That’s the time she starts insulting me to others and taking credit for my work. I have lived it over and over!! I hope to never live it again but if I do–solo skills!! That is my new plan!!